I used to laugh everyday. Laughing was my favorite thing to do. Since I have been doing stand up comedy on a regular basis, I hardly laugh anymore. I don’t know why? Maybe from being around it all the time I am getting numb. When I started doing stand-up comedy, I laughed at all the comics. Now, I just say “funny”, perhaps chuckle, but no real laughter. I can’t remember the last comic that made me laugh out loud. I long for that eye-tearing, belly laugh, but it just doesn’t come.
I love making people laugh. People approach me after my shows and thank me for making them laugh. I took them away from their horrible lives for a while. It’s the most satisfying part of doing stand up comedy. I just wish I knew what that felt like. People try to make me laugh. Being a comedian, they feel it’s necessary to send me jokes from the Internet. I never laugh at any of these. Besides, I have seen them all hundreds of times. I appreciate your efforts, but please stop.
The hope of every comedian is to make the whole world laugh. However, stand-up comics are among the saddest, most depressed people I have ever met. Many are bitter and angry because they can’t make every person laugh. Their entire self-worth is based on how many people they made laugh on any given night. Maybe if they could just laugh a little bit, they would feel better.
I apologize for sounding all sad and pathetic. There are a few things that make me laugh.
I still laugh every time I see a Marx Brothers movie, or episodes of Seinfeld and Curb Your Enthusiasm. It feels good to laugh at those things, but I have seen them all numerous times and I fear that one day I will grow tired of the repeats and cease to laugh. I don’t laugh at any new shows. I just find them lame. It’s the same old joke. Some new shows are one-joke shows and it gets old very quickly. I tend to disect the humor in current shows and I find it lacking originality and intelligence. I watch things other people say are funny and I just never laugh. I groan. I wince. I cringe. I don’t laugh. It’s hard to think about the last movie that made me laugh. I mean really laugh. I loved the old Mel Brooks movies, but that was before I lost my ability to laugh. If they came out now, I wonder if I would find them as funny.
This made me wonder about other professions. I can’t imagine how a gynecologist feels, or even worse, a porn star. Can they enjoy those intimate moments or does it feel like they are at the “office”? I guess it’s true when they say you can’t have too much of a good thing.
I hope to laugh again someday. I hope it’s soon. I certainly need to.
This is an actual picture taken while I was on stage.
It makes me happy, but it doesn’t make me laugh.
Daily Theme Song:
Smokey Robinson & The Miracles – Tears of a Clown http://youtu.be/k2kxlZDOHeQ